The Dailies
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You don't have to agree with me.
bittersweet life.
this is me.
yay! missed my pri sch frens... to start it off, most of them were very late. excuse: their sch ended late. ok... it's ok. it was worth the wait. in the meantime, i was entertained by this fren of my, faezah. she was so much more worse than ema. much more chaotic. well, i missed her sarcastic and arrogant remarks bout ppl. well, bottomline, she is still nice and sweet. wont get into the details bout each of my frens.
ate at BK at eastpt... they didnt like wanna go TM. so we stayed in simei.. yes. boring old simei. tt place like didnt changed a bit... dunno whether it's gd or bad. simei is so stagnant. well, back to my pt. ate there, then juz sat there and ponder upon the old times. those times when most of us had some embarrassing moments. hehe... we laughed our hearts out 4 the 2 hrs or so. it was hilarious. we were reminiscing(sp?) the childish and boring stuff tt kite tergamak buat. talked bout the stuff tt our frens did. like, one of them ever cried in a cupboard. oh my... wasnt she really malu. hehe... discuss and dissed bout our classmates. u noe, those kinda ppl tt are really blurheaded, with no life to live. yeah, tt kinda ppl. i onli knew how strong our frenship were juz now... although we have not met 4 over 3 yrs, we still could talked freely. like we didnt care whether our laughtter was huge, whether our sarcastic remarks was really hurtful or not. u noe, the way how i joke with peeps like ema, feli, fab and ad and other ppl who noe me. yeah, tt kind. i really appreciate them arranging this meet... haiz. wonder when else will we meet again? another 4 yrs? god noes... to those frens of mine tt i met up juz now- azlin, shahidah, faezah, diyanah, hazirah and fasihah- thank u for coming down. sorry tt i had to leave earlier..my dad was bieng such a nag. ugh... becoming worst than mum.. think coz of his really OLD age. i really wanna do this again... soon ya gals?
at sch, started off the day with a really stupid and long delay. ugh... so slow. gotta play this game.. dunno lah. must pass the balloons.. stupid. no meaning... wateva. waste of time anyways. so, after tt, watch the concert. hehe... sotongz and elf were really hilarious. hehe... gd job done by both of them. real proud of them. 'the reason' performance was screwed by the lead singer.. sorry if any of his frens are reading this. but, u gotta admit it rite? well, the band was orite, onli the lead singer. moving on, my most top of the list fave item was the song performed by faris and other boys. really nice... haiz. if onli there's a guy tt sweet to sing to me. fyi, the song was 'akustatik' by OAG. aww... then next to this fave was the dance by this guy frm 4a. amir izzit? dunno lah... any-hoos, he was awesome. he's like real smooth... woah. ask victor how estatic i was.. hehe. rite vic? fab's performance was better... but one of the peeps frm his band was like overly expressing his passion while playing guitar. ema, it's the guy with the dreadlocks. yeah... oh well, it went well afterall. yeah, then teachers cut the cake, end of concert, gave prezzies to the teachs... dropped by a hi or two at ex siglapians. nice to see them....
didnt take much pic... coz i sittin too far. onli 8 pics onli i think. yeah. wanted to bring cam 4 the gathering, but too lazy lah.
dunno if i miss out details.. but tt's all 4 now...
Smashed into pieces at 8/31/2004 04:20:00 PM
yes... blogging once again. got time, so curi2 je lah time to blog. ok juz got back frm sch. had been a really tiring day, serious. well, i noe u guys dun wanna be bored to death bout my daily mundane sch routine, but i juz havta blog it. coz, till i find something else to talk bout, u'll juz havta be entertained by my entry bout my life. so here goes...
started off the day with a talk with 2 of my sec 2 cadets. they kinda have some probs, and they come to me, even after i stepped down. they told me tt they trusted me and im reliable... hehe... see, im not tt bad afterall ya noe? hehe... ok, yeah, they shared their stuff, then it was start of curriculum. well, first up, bio. mdm su was absolutely mad at us. reason? coz we didnt put in our upmost effort 4 the prac exam. i got 39/80... juz FAILED! haiz.... dunno wat to feel. i gotta admit tt i didnt really studied, but at least i did ya noe. i wanna feel disappointed, but i noe i shouldnt coz it was my fault tt i didnt put in tt much more effort. wat else.... oh yeah, wanna feel happy, but the point is tt i failed. so i muz some sort of a freak if im joyous of my failure. git back my a math paper too... my, ms yong really a speed marker. again, i got 39/80. this, i can be ensured, tt im happy bout it. positive motivation 4 me... c'mon nurul... u can do it. for those who didnt do well for the paper, cheer up. worst case scenario: u dun come 4 da paper lah... simplez! erm.... recess was boring. some ppl took up the space at our norm sittin place... go away! u'r not wanted!!! argh.... socail studies was alrite. mdm gill like dun give a damn whether we do our wok or not... hehe. wow.. but i have the feeling tt she muz have tt nagging need to yell at us.. hehe. phy was boring... got back paper as well. and yes, once again, i failed. so it seems tt i kinda failed most of my subj. am i great or wat? awesome attitude 4 the upcomin Os.... anyone of u ppl who would like to join me back in pathetic prison-like siglap sec again next, feel free to follow my style of studyin. well, crappin shit here... haiz. ill stop.. shant elaborate abt the eng enrichmt prog... crappy stuff... the teacher was like so boring... ok. ill stop.
took bus home with ema and rash... hehe. ema and i coincedently found out tt we have sorta the same nick name in pri sch. she was being called coconut... and i was being the same name too. hehe... wat a discovery. well, it wont like concern u ppl, so i understand y u wont be understand. moving on... ema was dissing and pickin on guys. yes, didnt matter whether we like waiting 4 da bus or in the bus. guess she's really stress... dun blame her though. hehe....when i was abt to alight the bus at my bus stop, andy boarded the bus. hehe... understand understood lah.. he's changed so much. well, kinda gd 4 him. but, he's like kinda too influenced with the relationship. not trying to say anything, but well, he's changed. not gonna say anyhting else...shhh...
ema, suz and liya was like baby talking to each other... and i tell ya, it is doublely and triplely irritating... ewww... well, stop it k gals? it's very.... dunno lah. last words... SYAREAL HAS THE HOTS 4 AD.... hehe....he juz didnt wanted to admit it. but y mus he like mention bout it so much in his entry? hehe....
and to farn: dun do wat u did to me during the break... it's kinda teperanjat. takde kerje lain eh??
~envy is an illegal emotion. longing is even more dangerous than envy~. *ahem... mr retard, u should wat i mean*
Smashed into pieces at 8/30/2004 05:24:00 PM
im back... once again. c.. i told u peeps tt i wont be bloggin tt often these days. so i guess u ppl will miss me rite? awww... hehe. juz kiddin.but if u do, ill love u 4eva! okok.. im crappin alreadi... better get to sth more sensible.
ok, my blog is not as nice as it seems. dun realli like it... but thanks to those who praise ME 4 it. thanks peeps... a math paper was okok.... i was day dreaming lotz durin the paper. didnt like managed to concentrate. guess coz the nite b4 i didnt like slept early. well, wateva. glad the paper was over. waited 4 bro to finish his NP activity... in the mean time, crap ard sir harzelly and hafidz... listen to his iPOD too. yay! thanks again... wat else? oh yeah, gotta update u guys bout the overseas exhibtion i attended. must... so here goes.
it was marvellous. there were a lot of universities setting up their booths. talked to my mum bout goin overseas to study... she kinda agreed juz like tt. cool huh? kinda glad tt ad told me bout the exhibition.. thanks ad. well, back to the pt of my entry. where was i... oh ok. first stop. murdoch uni. the lecturer himself talked to me... gave all the detail. gosh, i tell ya... he really talked with DETAILS. everything... gd actually. then stopped by UNSW and monash. i wanna go monash... awesome i tell ya the uni.. the lecturer frm monash talked to me. he has like these very intense gd lookin eyes.. which kept me interestin in wat he was talkin, although some stuff i didnt really understood. but oh well, he is lecturer. too bad... if it was a student, hah... i guess ill make him tell me about every sch in the uni. hehe... the lecturer frm monash who talked to me was not tt old, and he really made me interested in goin there. i really wanna go monash! at the end of everything, mum told me to pursue studies in s'pore first.. argg! thick lining of cloud settled upon me.. hehe. yeah, kinda sad? angry? dissapointed? frustrated? i dunno... so, it seems tt i dun havta take the foundation studies then. well, takin foundation studies do require lotsa $$, but it for gd use rite? im gonna study and do well... yes i will. ok, maybe if i cant go there like next yr, they gotta send me there 4 uni. I MUST GO! get tt? im goin berserk... coz the moment i stepped into the exhibition hall, the feeling of independance and freedom surrounded me. there was this feeling of desperation to go over to aus... somehow, it made me to really do well. i really do. so dearest frens of mine, do encourage me aitez? hehe.... once again, monash, wait 4 my arrival k...
i dunno wat else to blog abt. ok let me now release my tots over the week. to this fren of mine, u noe who u are, plz decide carefully wat u gonna do with ur relationship with ur love one, wateva u call him. im really worried when u first came across a fite with him. i was afraid of seeing u frail off in ur studies... allowin the pressure of a relationship setting in u. i really dunno how or wat to say stuff, but i hope u can get wat i wanna get across. u should noe urself. u should noe wat's ur limit, how far u can go-for now. im in no position to say this, coz i've never been in a relationship and i kinda like dunno bout this stuff tt u goin thru. if u really are serious bout this, so be it. all i gotta say, be careful. he mite be nice and sweet and caring and all. but, a lil misunderstanding can perish everything. all the best to this fren of mine. hope u noe wat u are doin. for wat im goin to say, hopefully it makes sense. so here goes: love is fragile, and so is ur heart. cherish it while u can, b4 it breaks into pieces and hurt u. use ur instincts to let u onto the rite way... dun onli use ur feelings and words frm him to help u decide. wateva u do, ill be here to support u. dun worry, i will never neglect u in any way. u are my fren, and u'll always be. i am here for u to pour ur sorrows out, i promise to be ur listening ear. all the best.
snapping back to norm... one of my ex schmates called me up, asked me to go back to pri sch, with some other frens. i was like, ok. but not tt really enthu bout it. maybe juz goin out to eat with them or sth lahz.... to any of ex schmates or classmates of mine who are readin this, update me soon on wat's goin on. i really wanna meet up... i think this is da onli time tt we can do it, b4 our intensive studies begins for both prelims and Os. so, i guess ill be hearing frm u peeps soon, rite?
to tassha: u gotta think twice bout me attending classes tt are fun... mane ade. well, appreciate wat u have though... thanks for taggin. take care gal!
thanks to those peeps who tagged my board... appreciate it tons! take care dearies...
tikus....squeakin off...
~u can call me selfish, but all i want is ur love
u can call me hopeless, baby, coz im hopelessly in love
u can call me unperfect, but who's perfect?
tell me wat i gotta do, to prove tt im the onli one 4 u
wat's wrong with being selfish..... ~
Smashed into pieces at 8/29/2004 02:41:00 PM
yes.. have not been updating. coz, for one reason, no mood. and the other reason is no time. well, tryin to sneak using the comp... juz woken up frm my onli-an-hr nap. so, kinda half-awake and half-asleep.
today, let me see wat happened. if there's anything interesting. well, e math was as usual, how it has always been. a math, wateva. sick of it.... then it was geog. gotta noe tt tmr will be like the last time we'll be having geog lessons.. coz next week is da teachers' day crap. following week is da hols... then comes the first week of the new term, which is the PRACTICALS.. and soon, the written papers roll in. recess... talked and 'brilliantly' discussed bout olympics.. and yes, esp bout the hot bods peeps. michael phelps... ian thorpe... and accordin to ali, there's another male diver, nameless. hehe... well, we were like so bimbotic. guys were all on our conversation list. hah! after recess, the most awaited subj: eng. sotongz said sth bout us kena stay back today.. and gosh, it's was like so last min, and shockin. but during the lesson, and when the lesson was over, rajan didnt give back the papers, and we didnt get any punishmts. oh well, gonna like slaughter tt squid soon. coz it was like, she burst into the class after her pathetic POA class, and was like shoutin out to me bout us staying back, when it so didnt happen. ugh. eng class is so unpredictable. coz one moment it'll be a class which u dun ever want it to end, but on the other hand, u juz would want to stranggle rajan's head off so tt she'll juz stop criticisin and we'll, at last, live in peace. rajan was nice today, and i'll predict tt tmr she'll be the total oppposite. chem was such a no-no juz now... totally sleepy. managed to get thru it though.
assembly was like so 'interesting'. dunno who lah they invited to speak abt art thingy... me and andy and ad were like in a world of our own, joking and laughin to our hearts' desire... hehe. andy sorta taught me how to pronounce da diff tones, u noe, for the chinese words,, damn. couldnt get it rite. oh well.... so tt's prac my day.. boring aint it?
have been dying to blog bout this. well, im neutral. i juz wanna give my opinion, and well, this is MY blog, so i can blog bout anything. not trying to state anything, but i juz think it's like dumb to criticise over blogs. i mean, it's like no sense at all. u wanna hurt and criticise and anger someone thru words, isnt it like sth cowardy? cant understand y there's quarrels and wars. for an instance, betrayal among classmates. how painful and hurtful is tt. and wat's more, one party is willing to compromise, but the other juz turn his/her back and try to pretend to be very hurt and casted away. it's unfair, if a quarrel happens, to juz walk away and not thinking wat's the other party is thinkin or feeling. yes, hatred leads u to do so... but wateva goes ard comes ard, dun they? i believe so. i really do. one shouldnt be so upset if the person he or she is quarrelin with is a fren of theirs. i mean, they gotta understand and noe each other really well, since they claim themselves to be frens. and honestly, dun try to over react- i am so not talking bout feli, k dearie...- if, however, the person is so ur life and death enemy, well, ignore the quarrel. tryin to fite back with someone who u dun noe tt well is useless, baseless. onli makes things worst. im not against peeps who argue to stand for themselves. yes, i admire tt, but when things get a lil overboard, it'll all be too entangled, and yay! u got urself in a fix. and im sure it isnt sth u would love.
i mite be contradicting myself at some pt, for those of peeps who noe me real well. coz i myself, gotta admit, tt i argue with ppl, esp my classmate, to tell them tt im not a person tt u can juz provoke any o-how to ur liking. but when i realised tt it was a waste of time to argue on such a baseless issue, i stop, lettein the other person bask in his own victory, which he gladly thinks he earned. u noe wat..? WATEVA! argh...
i juz feel tt, since everyone's talkin bout this crap on their blogs, this is the norm thing tt we go thru as a teenagers. when others get their paths crossed. for me, i'll juz let it pass....
Smashed into pieces at 8/24/2004 05:08:00 PM
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
e math today was oritez... mr kek was kinda ez on us.. didnt like nag much today. then it was eng... did this compre thingy. kinda ok.. the passage was like ez to understand... not really confident bout the ans though.. oh well. geog was boring.... tt lim teach didnt come... so tt mr zaini guy came in. ugh... balik2 this guy... then he was like even talking to me and liya a lil bout sex. hehe... cool guy. he said tt sex isnt worth waiting 4 till marriage... hah. but he said, on the other hand, he wasnt like encouraging us either. wat else... liya and me were readin mag... boring mah.. wat else to do? then came phy... still no test. wateva lahz. was really sleepy.. my mood was all way low durin da break. haiz...
u mite thinkin tt my day was somewhat alrite... but here comes the 'ugh!' part. remedial when on as per norm... rajan came in late, had a tiny weeny quarrel with 4f over some banging-doors-and-walls matter.. which led rahman stayed back. liya to stay back as well, coz she opened her trap to explain... real help there gal.. hehe. and this is somewhat a daily thing: elf, andy, rahman. fighting... yes, body contact. ugh.... like wat do they benefit? sheesh... not angry at elf though... not at all. elf like, elbowed me or sth like tt juz now in class... then, as usual, i started to scream at elf and zahid. da lah aku btul moody- dunno y. my... i really didnt mean to do tt.... it was in a moment of anger and frustration. soon, my frustration piled, thank u very much to ego maniac. ugh... i SO wasnt screaming in his face... y da hell did he interupted me? yeah... possibly coz i was irritating... well, too bad. argh! the way he tries to prove tt he and the rest was so not in the wrong juz.. i dunno. irks me? ewww.... come on lah. it was partly u ppl fault.. trust u ppl to play ard with this kinda stuff.. wow. u sure do show A LOT of maturity.
really pissed... but luckily ema, rash and fab sorta joked and cheered me up. thanks peeps... oh yeah, helped ais to type out this model student award thingy... haiz. i was amazed at myself 4 typin at such great speed... coz library hadta close... so gotta rush. stupidl library. arent they like supposed to cater to the students' needs? ewww... and tt old wrinkly aunty... so boastful. wateva. erm... wenta home. bus 81. ema told me bout the mrt story... feli darl should noe. the one abt the emergency thingy... hehe... real funny. cheeky fingers.. took 293 with ema... she was suddenly into guys tt wore slungy jeans... i embarrassed myself in front of the gd lookin guys. i was like lookin and askin where he was ALOUD. and i went oppss, when i found out tt he was rite like in front of me. nurul, nurul... get hold of urself gal... in the bus, me and ema were like blabberin stuff... in like slow mo. those of u still blur, tt means slow MOTION. laughin damn loud... criticising this NCC guy, who wasnt like too happy with our noise, hehe... then we kinda like said out loud tt me and ema gonna like go out with our nCC bf, who doesnt like sleep with their mouths open. hehe... coz he was slept with his mouth open, u c... rite.. had a gd laugh juz now... oh yeah, we two were also comparing the hafidzs.. it like nth tt u wanna noe.. but, yeah. wateva.
Smashed into pieces at 8/18/2004 06:38:00 PM
ewww... hate it. talked crap 4 orals... kept repeating da same pts.... then the examiner was like having droopy eyes.... fuck off u lazy bitch. argh.... wateva. orals over... ugh. dun say i didnt blog... this is all i can afford today.
Smashed into pieces at 8/17/2004 06:43:00 PM
juz got back frm sch. met rajan juz now... for some oral thingy. she gave us tips here and there... hmmm, she does still loves us. hehe..... she really does cares bout us. i really appreciate her... gotta do sth as class for her, aitez classmates?
wenta watch da fireworks yesterday... fuh.... spectacular sight. managed to watch da last few mins... coz my dad couldnt like get out of the jam... sorry elf, for not goin with u. last min lah u... anyways, he asked to go with him, so tt he wouldnt be a lampost between liya and her guy... hehe. then, wenta eat dinner at chai chee seafood restaurant..hehe. then went home... studied 4 phy test, but unfortunately, mr wee cancelled it today. haiz... but im proud of myself 4 studyin... it feels real good.
decided to re take da mly Os... yes, couldnt let the opportunity slip thru.
4 peeps who have probs, dun matter in wat aspect, take it as a challenge in life. be confident and face it.... get over it. think thru, reasonably, and u mite feel good 4 doin so, as this can affect in wateva decision u make.... i SO dunno y im sayin this really piece of crap... but yeah. maybe, this is juz for me... nth to do with the Os.
really bored, so i've been wanting to do this 4 a long time. so here it is... a list of my classmates and their description:
~yuan2: math freak frm china... i mean it in a gd way
~aisyah: a.k.a ex- gigi besi. pretty & independant gal.... has a LOT of leadership qualities
~pei shi: quiet... but get to noe her more, and u'll noe.
~cheryl: a.k.a ah ma! hehe... very hilarious gal... very outgoin one...
~kee yong: hmm... can be very lazy... but he is another of those math freak in our class, but not as freaky as yuan2.
~diana: nth to say lah.... pretty quiet as well
~tuck hong: wateva da spellin is... very miserable lookin guy... very scared to stand up 4 his own rites...
~yun xin: can be very irritating with her stupid ques... but someone who can easily cooperate
~lin bin: quiet guy.... nth else to comment...
~nasriah: another quiet one in the class....
~jerome: hah! this guy..... lazy. cant be bothered attitude, but nice guy to talk to... he can craps easily..hehe
~zi hui: treasurer... quiet also... kinda smart as well. now, not too sure though... hehe
~suzie: woah.... someone who contributes to the noise in class.. hehe. in a gd way ya... hard workin gal...
~wilson: can be irritatin... with his ridiculous arguements with mdm su. math freak... but not really at times.
~atikah: nice gal to get to noe abt.... hard workin, and very cooperative.
~victor: heck care attitude, but it's juz his luck tt he somehow managed to survive during exams.
~me!: messy, hot headed gal... noisy? maybe.. anything else, feel free to add in my taggie, aitez?
~fabian: motivater of the class.... very, very, very hard workin... but sometimes, juz can easily chuts down in class. can make a lot of noise too
~wan ying: ok ok... nth to comment...
~zahid: irritating idiot... hobby: to tell lies... need to lose weight, a lot.
~andy: changed- dunno 4 the better or not- ever since he got into a relationship... one of the MAJOR ego maniac in class
~joycelyn: quiet... nth else.
~liyana: another 'woah..!' after suzie... haiz. whine and whine... but tt's her. nice gal.... u wanna bitch ard, look 4 her. watche out 4 her mood swings too
~alvin: a.k.a albong. no idea how tt name came abt... quiet ass, class manager... nice guy. always kena bully.
~feli: a.k.a queen of flowerz. tall gal with a sorta squeeky and very hih pitchy voice... very bubbly at times... but, u noe gals, they're sure to have mood swings.
~khairul: UGH! puke! irritaing... lazy. self centered.... he thinks tt life onli revolves ard him and silat
~shahidah: a.k.a sotongz. very slow+blur....
~yan lin: dun understand y she always MUZ take a 'nap' in class...
~erlina: our class manager. hmm.. another one with a very unpredictable mood swing.
~ivan: lurve this guy... his jokes can juz cheer someone up... gonna miss him.
~michelle: no comment. prolly moz of teachers pet... but come to think of it, none of the teachers mite noe bout her coz she's TOO quiet.
~ema: another woah.... noisy gal who brings da life into class.... tries very hard everytime to do well... all da best 4 da future.
~salim: u can never resist his absolutely enormous smile... my... heeh. tt's the onli thing tt is distinct bout him...
~jon: another math freak. maybe we shouldnt bathe... then we'll prolly be as smart as him. but on the other, he's really helpful...
~rashidah: dunno wat to say bout her lah... quiet. but can be intelligent... juz gotta noe how to use it.
~elfi: owns da most gorgeous eye popping butt.... noisy. craps a lot...
~cindy: hmmm... nth to comment
~hui shan: a study freak convert. not really gd 4 her acutally... someone gotta advice her on how to crack jokes and have fun while studyin at the same time...
~rahman: hah! this is the other ego maniac. argh.... wonder wat it takes to burst tt ego bubble... his attitude really sickens the shit out of me...
well, tt's all bout my classmates. teachers,,, ill post bout them another time. hope i dun miss anyone out... if i do, sorry. hehe... tt's all.. adieu.
Smashed into pieces at 8/16/2004 04:50:00 PM
Thursday, August 12, 2004
got my mt o level results... kinda disappointed. it's not tt bad, but kinda like shocked to get B. but on the other hand, didnt expect to get an A either.. so i dunno lah. most of us were like crying our eyes out... esp the gals. haiz... most got B3. even ias and liyana pendek. really demoralising... maybe ill retake again... god, it's such a REALLY wake up call. wont be bloggin so often anymore... if i do, i BEGGED someone to slap me.. serious. my eyes were like so bloodshot by the time 4 remedials. thanks 2 those nice and kind souls tt consoled me... im really touched. those peeps are syareal, ad, vic and mr wee. if there's others, thanks ya? i was to blurrified 2 notice my surroundin env at tt time... haiz. my wee talked to me juz b4 class... such a nice guy. enuf lah.. to my frens who didnt do well, i think we should retake again, coz every point counts..and we shouldnt waste the opportunity.
dun feel like bloggin lah... let me c wat i can blog abt. yesterday's pe wasnt as fun. today, had photo takin..4 both council and my class. the council one was horrible... argh! pathetic teachers... can even organise a photo taking session. they sure knew tt the council will be big.. but they wanted to squeeze everyone at once... at the last resort, which was like after 20 mins, they decided tt we should be split into upper and lower level. GONGGONGS! ugh... went back to class. rajan was stull upset with us over yesterday's matter... didnt want to teach us. haiz.. lazy to give comments at the moment...erm.. tt's 4 now. lazy to carry on.. feel free to tag even if i didnt update k.. hehe. thanks. love u peeps... muackz..
p.s: i dunno wat happened to my taggie... not mine onli.. the rest of u bloggers too..
Smashed into pieces at 8/12/2004 05:39:00 PM
i dunno whether to love or hate him. argh... he is such an unappreciative, senseless and unsensitive person. he is also for one sided... but on the other hand, i dunno... i cant bring myself to praise him. argh... i hate staying at home. coz there's nth i can do. my family members, esp mom and dad, juz like have a hard time enjoying life. how the heck can i bond closer with them...? this really saddens me.. honestly. i cant, or dare at all, talk openly bout my probs with them, even with my mom. coz i dun comfortable. i relly dunno where to confide... if i go to my frens, i really dun wanna trouble and burden them with all fuckin life long probs. ugh! tmr is dad's bdae... hah! yesterday, mum wenta buy him a cake frm swesens.. still not at show it to him..supposed to be like today. but his mood is really crappy.. i dunno wat to say. for all i care, i dun care actually. heck care to him.... pity my mom sometimes. he can really be unsensitive at times.... we cant voice our views... so, put it this way. our house, our family and pur lifes are all based, directed and decided by tt asshole. oooohh... im goin to have a lot of sins by callin him tt... but u think i care? i certainly dun at all.... i pity my mum.. honestly. sometimes, he juz doesnt appreciate anything tt we do. 4yi, i didnt celebrate father's day. so, it's like better off saying tt i dun have a father. u ppl mite think im the unappreciative one here... but nooo... u gotta noe me and live under on roof with me to understand. but i advice u not too... coz it gonna be living hell. no fun and no love. argh.... i hate home. i hate sch- sometimes. i hate life. i hate death. i dunno wat's gotten into me... maybe the way he has been acting today... his 'i-dun-care-so-u-better-lisen-and-not-bother-me' attitude and expression... so, we can trigger him off huh? well, u think i dun dare? i've did tt several times... those who really noe, mite have seen me break down. argh... pissing me off....
tot of bloggin bout yesterday's ndp.... but, oh well. thank u to those frens of mine.... for those times tt u have comforted me, in any way. really appreciate it.... sorry to bore u peeps with this fucked up entry... well, it's my life. bear with it.
Smashed into pieces at 8/10/2004 05:55:00 PM
Smashed into pieces at 8/08/2004 08:57:00 PM
had great FUN today!! weEE~~..!!hehe... was on stage again, for like dunno after how long. hehe. sotongz was like really sorta afraid tt response wasnt so gd. told her not to worry... so, soon it's our turn to be on stage. kinda happy tt the crowd was like alrite 4 the previous tiems.. tt was the gal's mum, and the choir. the sch's response was great for those two items.. so yeah. it was like a warm 4 them.. at backstage, me, ais, kit kat, jooz and andre was like practically yelling singing to choir. hehe... tt's 'warm up' 4 us. rite...wenta out to stage.. and boom!! the crowd lurved us! yeah..i think lah. hehe... but however, it was fun. we tot the lower sec would participate more actively..but was like schocked to c tt the upper sec participated much more.. hehe. thanks to those peeps who really celebrated with us, who sang their lungs out with us. to my classmaties!!! hehe... lurve u guys... muackz! then had the stupid presentation..we lost. but wateva.. it was 4 da fun of it! i was SO into stage performances juz now... so cool. hehe... wat else? oh yeah...4G WON THE BEST BANNER 4 DA EXPRESS LEVEL... hoOrAH!! well, ali, if ur class won da scarf thingy, we won sth else too... hah! jk lah.. anways, urs was kinda nice as well... serious. thanks u and well done to em, fab, rahman, elf and sotong... gd job peeps...
after dismissin, waited 4 my dad to fetch me and bro.... in the meantime, had a chat with stone... haha. it was nice... long time never talked to him tt much. well, he's an interestin guy, although being criticised and known 4 his rebellious character, he is a nice and responsible guy afterall. 4 those who noe who im talking bout, u should like sorta agree.. rite?
wanted to blog today coz wanna talk bout the stage thingy...hehe. well done 4G... lurve u peeps... great class i have. im proud to be in 4G, where the class spirit is awesome... marvellous job done... keep it up the class spirit.. adieu...
Smashed into pieces at 8/06/2004 05:21:00 PM
Thursday, August 05, 2004
not have been updating 4 quite a while. dun ask y. lost interest maybe.
juz got home... long story. malas nak cerita. came home, adn mum nagged at me. way the ehck..it's lokke not the first time tt i came this late. anyways, it isnt late at all. hello..im like alreadi fuckin 16 yrs old... argh! forget it... no mood to talk bout it.
wat happened lately? well, prac exam 4 bio..wateva. seriously, no mood to blog. sorry peeps... thanks to those peeps tt have been faithfully visitin and taggin my bloggie. appreciate tt peeps.. lurve ya all...
Smashed into pieces at 8/05/2004 08:20:00 PM
hey ya!! hehe... i was on air last nite. on air, as in on radio. hehe... u peeps mite be prolly be sick of it now...but, bottomline is i spole to daniel ong! hurrah! hehehe... my, he was so nice... his chuckles... hehe.. so cute. hehe... ok, yeah, so tt was like the main highlite of last nite i think. haiz... will go on air again. soon. wanna try my luck again...hehe.
today, i was bloody tired during e math remedial. kek kept like pickin on me, to like sit up and all. wateva. b4 tt, bio was boring and pathetic. a math was nth. coz, ms yong wasnt at sch. and yes.. social studies. came face2face with tt gill once again. ugh. sick. changed place at hist room...sat with ema instead of suz, liya and erl. sorry gals... hehe. did u peeps miss me? yeah... tt's like so sick.. so anyways, gill was like SO and VERY irritating..and she picked on me, worst off than how she could have picked on liya. hated her for tt...when told her tt she sorta miscalculated my marks, she didnt wanna believe. but it IS very true. phy was very borin...
after remedials, wenta tuition with the hope to c the french speakin guy again... but then, my tutor said he followed by tutor's hubby to china... argh! so didnt c him today... so sad. he's like havin i dunno how many holidays in one. coz now he's in china, when he should oli be holidaying in s'pore, then over the weekend, he'll be following my tutors family to m'sia. argh! no fair... he gets to go on holiday... like SO often. ugh! and yes, ill be using the word 'ugh' often.. so bear with me... ugh!
im sick of sch...but i dunno wat keeps me goin. i dunno wat makes me to still have the energy and interests every now and then to attend sch. can somebody tell me? i have to drag myself to the sch compound and repeat wat i have been doin over and over again... but on the other hand, i sometimes feel tt sch is the onli place i wanna be... i dun understand myself...
Smashed into pieces at 8/02/2004 06:34:00 PM
ok... sch was great on fri. hahaha!! started off the day by tying rahman's chair to his table... some of u mite probably seen twines(strings) tied to his table and chair. hahaha....got him a track shoe... nice one. brown. but... he confessed tt he didnt exactly liked brown... oh well. he has to except it anyways..hehe. the cake. arrived during bio... well, it's was EXTREMELY delicious! yum! saboed him at the end of remedials... hoorah! me and fab smacked cream and the choco fudge onto his face and esp his hair... yay! and yes, of coz, he did 'retaliated' back.. well, guess tt's enuf for tt ego maniac bdae... b4 remedial tt day, wenta eat with em, sotongz and ais. where else but at mac's.. mly 'remedial' was PATHETIC... i think em was like the onli one paying attention and ans all her Q... and on to sat..yesterday...
e math prac exam was- like was liya would say, yayness- for me..hehe. it's real doable.. hope i can pass... but worried bout the careless mistakes tt i could have make. haiz...but wateva. juz hope...then, after tt, helped out at the drill comp tt was held at our sch. yes..we are the host. coz we are da champs last yr.. AND WE ARE THE CHAMPS AGAIN THIS YEAR!! double and triple HOORAH!! hehehe... it's was really a close fite with PRCS..ema shoud noe. but they exceeded some 50 secs after the time limit... so yeah. and then, sir sara sorta 'made' the drill comp team salute us.. the sec 4s. awww... unexpectedly, tears began to well up... it felt real gd... all the more i really dun wanna leave the unit... argh! somebody slap me plz... make me realise tt i NEED to distract myself away frm np.. anyways, yesterday, ema wenta rahman's house to print photos.. and, god noes wat else they did. hehe... wonder how she managed with all his cats... hehe.. and ema DEARIE(puke), im so no wat u put at ur blog... aitez.. hehehe*cursing and swearin at heart* once again, SIGLAP NPCC UNIT HAS ATTAINED THE OVERALL CHAMP AND CHALLENGE THROPHY FOR DRILL COMP 2004!! wenta eat at mac's (again) after tt..food has never tasted tyt gd. really.. i was like starving yesterday... oh yeah, sir hazerlly came down yesteraday..thank u sir. at mac's, sir sara bought us ice cream..hehe. at least sth..wanted to buy us food, but pitied him. hehe... then kept irritating me. argh! with wat, u peeps dun havta noe... aitez...?
well, guess tt's enuf... today dunno wat to do... maybe sit in front of the comp/tv all day... maybe study, but not the whole day... haiz..
Smashed into pieces at 8/01/2004 09:33:00 AM
The Crushed One
Nurul Syahidah
*frizzylady*
singapore polytechnic
frizzylady@hotmail.com
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me
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